I need to recalibrate myself. I need to reset my systems. I need to begin my next steps with a direction that is proven to be honest and true. I need to get back up on the horse (that doesn’t want me to be there — why the fuck would one animal prefer that another another animal be on top of it???? — yet another horrible animal metaphor) and do what is right by my beliefs and what is precious to me.
Ugh. 🙂 But there are good views out there to be had. I recently took a looooooooong Lyft ride through northwest Portland and it was very educational. There is so much foliage out there, and it is beautiful and lush. I love it. I would love to live in it. If only the world were to stop for a second and allow me some peace to do so. But anyway, I have to plan on a way to pay my way to peace through renting a nice apartment that gives me a VIEW of what I was just witnessing. That is my objective right now.
I might be socializing with some friendlies later tonight, which would be a big change of pace, and I hope that goes well. I just want to find some peace and quiet so I can do what is necessary to pursue my goals, which include, blah, blah, blah, and being with my boys. 🙂 🙁 🙂